back again,   if any of you have a myspace please feel free to add me.   http://www.myspace.com/missyisanut  The only thing is no adult profiles... you know xxx website stuff and nude type pics...  (unless your profile is private)  I have a teen who I am sure checks up on who her mama's friends are.  *lol* 

I have a facebook too, but I visit it once a month or so.  I just dont have time to maintain a bunch of blogs/sites.

Just talked to Eric (thank goodness for skype) he is stuck on the interstate. An accident. Has not made it to the OK border yet. Has been driving on 2-3 inches of ice. While we were talking he got out of the truck and fell and busted his ass. *lol* Colton misses him. Funny he is really not home much.. I guess we all just miss the idea of him not being here.

Shane is sleeping on me again. :D Only this time he is in the sling, so I get both hands. I just need to relax when it comes to him. It is like I have this voice saying (you are spoiling him) Fuck the voice! :D Kayla is playing on windows movie maker... she is so creative that one. I really admire her... I still want to be her when I grow up. If I die tomorrow I wont have anything to show for my life...except my kids. And I will die happy knowing they are beautiful people. :D

I really need to get a paid account.. I want more icons, and such.

and I am up. Shane is sleeping with Eric. He looked a bit better today (ok so I guess it really is yesterday, but I have not been to sleep yet), but still sick. I hate having to suck out his nose, he cries. He hates taking all the medicine. It is a mess. I hate having sick kids. I think it is a control thing. Knowing I cant just fix them and make things better. Shane was 19lb 12 oz at the Dr yesterday. He feels so much heavier. Ohh and before I forget (still dont have a baby book for this stuff) when he stands up on things ( couch, table, me) he thinks it is funny to let go. Thank goodness for diapers. Of course that .1 sec that he stands seems like a lifetime, Kids get all excited, and I just frown. No walking yet. I mean it! Seriously!

Kids are getting along better, that is helpful. The dont go back to school until the 9th. If Shane is feeligng better I want to take some photos. My mom has been bitching that we dont have any professional pics of the kids. I like the ones I take better. She is just to lazy to print them out. So if I get good pics, I may take them and get some printed and then mail them off.

Had great lovins last night. (umm Tues night) Eric was all cuddley too. Made me feel loved. I guess I am more needy then even I realize. I really need to get some sleep. But I think being up Fri-Mon night has eally messed with my sleep schedule. That and I worry to much about Shane. I moved his mattress on the floor next to ours like we had it at the old house. I think it will just stay like that for awhile. I like having him close, especially ow with him not breathing well. I really hope he gets better.

Night

Lots going on, have not had a chance to post or answer comments... I will try to get to it tonight....

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